Before I can be a grown up

When I was fifteen, I thought I knew a lot.
People called me mature for my age
I thought I was wise,
I thought I was grown up
But at eighteen, I definitely knew more
and I thought, now I am legally all grown up
Only to find out at twenty-three 
I knew so little
All my growing up was not helping me
tackle the curve life had thrown at me

At twenty-six I finally thought
that I had a grip
That, now, motherhood has made me wise,
I knew I was all grown.
"Ha!" laughed life in my face,
"You are such a child! Rushing to grow up!
Your arrogance shows your stupidity"

It's been a decade since then,
I have seen a lot,
I have understood a lot,
And yet,
I don't think that this is it
in fact, I am sure 
there is a lot more
for all that I know seems very little
the questions I am asked by life
leave me feeling inadequate and naive

so I don't think that this is it
there is a lot more
a lot more to tackle and withstand
a lot more to learn
many more wonders to discover
many more horrors to encounter
a lot more growing up to do
a lot more to endure 
a lot of silver to earn for my crown
yes, a lot more growing up to do
a lot more to learn
before I can be a grown up

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